The Illusive Meaning of Suffering

My friend Ahmed, a devout agnostic, recently asked me, “Ryan, If you remove the fear of hell and the promise of heaven… who’s gonna care about God anymore?” I said, “Ahmed, have you ever heard of a guy named Job?” Because Ahmed’s question is the book of Job’s question.  It’s a question that strips us bare.  It’s a question of utmost importance, and it’s the question that the Spirit of God asks all of us:

In the face of meaningless suffering, will you serve God?  Or will you curse God and die?

The hidden motivations behind our religiosity can no longer hide when our sense of justice is removed, when our sense that in this life goodness is rewarded and badness is punished can no longer serve to explain our reality.

William Blake's illustration of Job's Complaint

William Blake's illustration of Job's Complaint

This could be your reality tomorrow: Imagine that tomorrow your work tells you that in order to weather the economic storm your going to have to cut back on your hours, only for a little while and in the process you have to dip into your savings a little bit just to pay some bills.  But when a couple weeks turns into 9 months your savings account is now empty.  You’ve submitted your resume to fifteen other companies, but no one’s called.  Your employer calls you in.  “Finally” you think, “Here’s my break, I’m going to get my hours and benefits back.” But no.  This is not your break.  You are let go. You come home, feeling like “too little butter spread over way too much bread”, and that’s when it happens, the phone call that no one ever wants to get:  “There’s been a horrible accident.” And through the incoherent sobs you learn that the one that you love most in life was hit head on.  No one survived the crash.  This is now the bottom.  How could things possibly get worse? And in the morning as you try to piece your fragmented life together just enough to get out of bed and take a shower you notice in the mirror an oddly shaped mole on your chest…  who comes to visit you in the hospital? The ones who love to philosophize and speculate about your screwed up life.

Now, now we’ve come to Job’s real question.  It’s the deepest question of Job’s heart and your heart:  In the face of meaningless suffering – will you serve God?

When karma is crushed.  When your sense of what is just and right is outraged and when all that rage can only lead back to one Source… will you serve God, or will you curse God and die?  Job says what any of us would and do say, “God, life is not fair.  How does that work if you are fair and you’re in charge of life?  All the evidence points to just one thing:  God, you are not fair.” I want so badly to edit this out, but this was God’s answer in chapter 38: (gird yourself)  “Who the hell are you to call me unfair?  Look at everything I’ve made.” (*Okay, note to self:  This is not good pastoral care.  When someone has just lost their business and family and has life threatening disease… do not counsel them this way.)  But here it is.  God says, “Who the hell are you to call me unfair?”

But here’s another way to hear this chapter of Job.  God says:

“Job, let me put your situation into a larger perspective.

You know Atlantic Ocean.”  “Yeah.”

“It’s about 41 million square miles.”  “Uh huh.”

“And it’s about 28,000 feet deep.”  “Okay.”

“I made that.”  “Well, alright.”

“You know the Sombrero Galaxy?”  “No.”

“That’s because it’s 28 million light years from Earth.”  “Oh.”

“It has 800 billion suns.”  “Wow.”

“Yeah, and it’s 50,000 light years across.” “Oh. That’s big.”

I made that too.  And it’s mine to take care of.”

“See where I’m going with this?”  “Yeah.”

“So what makes you think that I can’t handle the problem of your suffering?

I’m your God and I made you.  Now, you’re not going to get an answer that you like here.  Will you trust me anyways?  Will you serve me anyways?  Or will you curse me and die?”

Job didn’t get the answer that he wanted, instead he got an encounter with the God who made him.  And you might not get the answer that you want to the problem of innocent suffering, of meaningless suffering, but the God who made you is present right now to encounter you and here is the answer that God gives:

There is only who is innocent – Jesus, who is the image of that same invisible God who spoke to Job from out of the whirlwind.  And the only Innocent One steps out of the mighty whirlwind and joins you in the soup of this meaningless suffering.  And to the outrage of the powers of this world, this Innocent One stands alongside the weaker thans, the left out, the hopeless, the family-less, the houseless, the jobless… stands with Job, stands with you and says,

“You are blessed.  God is your God.  God made you.  And I love you.  I see that you are suffering.  I hear your questions.  It doesn’t seem like much of an answer, but look at the cross.” Because in the face of meaningless suffering this Innocent One doesn’t curse God and die.  No, this Innocent One is cursed and dies, at the hands of the ones he made, the ones he made 28 million light years away from the Sombrero Galaxy, the ones he made surrounded by 41 million square miles of Ocean, And he says: “It’s for you.  I am for you.”

In the cross Jesus takes all the meaningless suffering of the world, takes all of your suffering and binds it to the very heart heart of God… and says “This is not the end of the story because the only innocent one is alive again!” And it’s not the end of the story for you for your story is now inseparably linked to Christ’s and united with Christ, because you are raised with Christ.

When my friend Ahmed, asked me “So what is there? If you remove the fear of hell and the hope of heaven, what is left?” I said, “I don’t know, Ahmed.  The only thing I know is past the promise of reward for my goodness, past the fear of punishment for my badness, and in the face of all the unexplainable suffering – there is only the undeserved gift of Jesus.”





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By ryan • Jun 28th, 2009 • Category: Worship Reflections

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  • jinalamalaika
    God is Love/ right! then believe it, God wants us to be happy right here on earth! Not in other life. So what are we? note- that I am not talking about myself. I am talking about "us" collectively, what are doing wrong?. 1. we must love one another as we would want to be loved. in the true expression of that love- God will be pleased and bless us! Note how we have deviated from that line. Everyone to themselves. Corporations are richer than the people. The governments and faiths have lost the moral authority to guide the people. But God has given us the will power, the brains and resources to make ourselves(not myself) happy right here on earth. In doing so God will be there. God Bless you All!!
  • jinalamalaika
    I have been told, that Bible has these words or close... love your neighbor as you would want to be loved?. If we truly did that, all human beings on this earth! many of our sufferings would just melt. and God's LOVE AND Glory would manifest itself upon us. LOVING ONE ANOTHER with all our hearts will please God - our Father. The World, the Earth has plenty- more than enough resources to satisfy our little needs. It is the greed and selfishness (evil, satan) that is on the way to discovering God! Amen.
  • MelanieLGillespie
    My heart is always imperfect
    Filled with swells and falls
    Up in my throat and down in my stomach

    Amazing Grace saves a retch like me?
    Before or after I splatter the bathroom floor?

    Ah I can only imagine this hope
    with tears streaming down my cheeks
    Yet the truth I know of the whole light
    shining through me and
    connecting to all beings near and far,
    we are here,
    Fumbling across this tiny marble,
    little glow snippets
    like fireflies in our one purposed intensity.

    I am primal, near feral, in my natural state.

    The rest of me is some other me I barely know.

    I am a channel for grace.

    I wish to receive your light.

    god touched my forehead today
    a warm balm on my third eye
    sending laughing honey waves of loving healing delight
    wrapping around my soul.

    god is love delight laughter joy
    innocence that comes after knowledge

    my guardian is so adult
    and unmistakably male.
    his broad smooth shoulders
    and wide palms
    bring me calm comfort strength surety.

    we are together humbled with tears of amazement
    when god’s childlikebuddhachrist love
    melted over us like heated butterscotch,
    like sunlight made liquid,
    peace and healing.

    that’s all.

  • ScottDavidson
    I normally try to stay quiet, but this question just cut through me.

    Do we have needs beyond what this world can offer? We are not only physical carnal creatures. We have a spirit. That spirit yearns to know why we are here, to make sense of our existence.

    So beyond the fear of hell and promise of heaven is there more to care about?

    We search out purpose and reason for our lives.
    We search for meaning and value in the things we do.
    We want to know fairness for ourselves and others
    We look to be known and to be accepted.

    We can decide for ourselves what is purpose, value, fairness and acceptable in this world. But this world does not conform to our will. Suffering, tragedy and failure meet us at many turns in our lives. There are events outside of us that drag on our souls. The world be itself does not offer what we need. The book of Ecclesiastes looks at many aspect of this. The book explores how unreliable and unfulfilling this world can leave us.

    Christ understands this when he says “One must not live on bread alone…”

    It is only God, who has the complete understanding that can complete us. It is only God that knows the purpose and reason for all creation. God understands meaning and value of all things. God ultimately holds the balance of fairness in his hands. Only God truly knows us.

    So would we still care about God? Yes, for we need him to live a full life. Does God care about us? Yes and it is through Christ that we can see the fullness of his love for us.

    The fullness that we can have by abiding in God’s spirit is worth caring about.
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